Embrace What You Normally Hide

One quote in the journal I really love, 'accept who you are and let others know that you accept it', yes I did learn to accept me for me. For what I look like, for how I talk, for what I think, for WHO I AM.

Doesn't take away that I sometimes fight myself, I'll probably keep struggling for a while. But overall, I am satisfied with myself

So yea, why this picture? 

Well, it's about the things you wouldn't show, don't like showing, maybe shouldn't show....

I have a very complicated relationship with my belly Atm, we are in peace, but I've had the battle in my head, with the thought that wouldn't stop screaming, 'you are fat'. 

I could handle the kids in my class (this was primary school) calling me fat, it didn't have so much effect (kicking and hitting has had more effect, I suppose). It was when they started calling me fat at home, that hurt. During dinner, if I would take some sauce, they would go like, 'fat belly, fat but, fat belly, fat but'(but in dutch) and they would go on and on... Now they, would be my mom's boyfriend, then later my brother and in the end even my mother. My mother however didn't only do it at dinner, during the day there where the random comments on everything, 'that'll make you fat...' for example.

BUT NOW I CAN EMBRACE MY BELLY! (most of the time)

(And I finally learnt to eat sauce again, does make the fries better )

And there's the scars, not all of them (but I'm not gonna strip! ), but yea, that is also a part of me. 

It's not something I usually show, so yah... It's something I can live with though, and maybe I'll be ready to show it when my 'surroundings' are ready for it. I am glad that I can walk sleeveless at my boyfriend's though

I AM CURRENTLY 6 WEEKS SH FREE THOUGH! (maybe I'm a little proud of that )

*boyfriend approved picture*

Wrote an additional story to this: fav.me/d70p604